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Sunday, October 30, 2005

Just been bumbling along these last few days. Stayed at home this weekend, without any company, which made it pretty quiet. Gave me the chance to do mundane things like tidying my room, plaiting my hair – I now have a surprisingly small head, and actually finishing my creative writing assignment though. Highlight was going to see The Educators. Lowlight was finally facing my bank account and shocking myself with my own profligacy. Selling stuff on eBay now to try and make amends... Cue frequent refreshing of the page to see how fast the bids are mounting up. It's already up to £4.20 and I only made the listings this afternoon, so not doing too badly.

I went to a really interesting exhibition on Friday at the Millennium Gallery in Sheffield. The Real Ideal – Utopian Ideals and Dystopian Realities. It was mixed media and there were some really amazing pieces. The idea was to subvert the viewers’ expectations, showing scenes that should be idyllic but which contained an edge of darkness.

There were some huge photographs by Gregory Crewsdon. They were incredibly detailed, with amazing depth of field (everything was in focus), bold colours and suggestive lighting. One was of a woman, sat alone on her bed. From the door to her bed lay a trail of roses. But not your average Valentine’s style floor littered with delicate petals, this was a trail of mud, thorns and vivid blood red petals. The woman’s arms and legs were covered in mud, in the bed lay the thorny remains of the rose bush that had been dragged through the house. On the bedside table were pills, alcohol and cigarettes. A suitcase sat in the hall, waiting by the door. The picture was saturated with detail. Others in the series showed a car parked in the middle of an intersection, driver’s door wide open, the passenger left alone in the car; and a Bree-type lady with red hair sat at dinner with her son, waiting for whoever was meant to be sat in the two empty places. The meat on the table dripped blood onto the paint and you could see the defeat in the woman’s eyes.

Still lives by Mr and Mrs Ivan Morrison showed photographs of bouquets of flowers in the tradition of the old masters. However, juxtaposed against the blooms were images of death and decomposition – a dead pigs head beneath one, wood pigeons below another, and putrefying fish below a third. At first you don’t recognise what is lurking below the flowers, but once you do, your reaction to the whole scene is transformed to one of disgust.

Katie Deith used painting to create her sense of unease. The pictures were inspired by holiday brochures. They showed beautiful natural scenes painted in saturated colours, with the colour conspiring to create an edge of menace.

The music from a video installation helped create the mood. The song was very tender, but in listening to the lyrics the despair became apparent.

‘What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,
No, I don't want to fall in love.
With you.
With you.’

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Day in the Life #6

Quiet day at home today. Feel like I’m getting mum’s cold, so trying to take it easy. Checked the internet, read the paper, undid my hair, read my book. Called Marc to catch up with him and his London working guy adventures. He seems to be enjoying the job and finding time to fit other bits and bobs in around it. Cotched on my beanbag for quite a while – my little reading nook is doing well.

Undid, washed, dyed, blow-dried and twisted my mum’s hair. She has an infected thumb and had to have the nail removed, so currently her right thumb, and pretty much right hand is out of action. Mum isn’t a natural patient, far too self-reliant. Thus washing and dying her hair at times turned into a bit of a battle of wills – ‘Harder! Faster! Left a bit! Now you’ve got it in my face!’. Finished a bit after 10pm and went to bed not too long after.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Day in the Life #5

Asked by my mum this morning if I wanted to go to Rufford Park with her, my dad, my aunts, uncle and grand dad for a walk. She suggested I could come and take pretty pictures. Almost decided to until I realised that my camera batteries were dead anyway. Thus stayed in bed for a while before getting up doing my usual internet stuff and then making a big breakfast of smoothie and porridge. Decided to be indulgent and eat it while watching SATC. While I was getting the DVD my dad came into the living room. Completely the wrong SATC to watch with him present – Samantha blowing random delivery guys, Miranda getting head from a guy who ends up with her all over him… fortunately my dad walked put about half way through and I was able to relax and watch the rest.

Bath. Saul calls and asks if I want to come to Oxford. Today. His brother is leaving and thus he has the room all to himself. Dinner and a night with him at the Old Parsonage is tempting… but I’d made plans to go to the theatre with my cousin. Being asked at 2pm to make it to Oxford this evening is also kind of short notice – I have a life! Can’t drop everything at the last minute and run. Still… hmm. I guess I’d been ambivalent about going in the first place, as I think he had about me being there – it being a big old family thing and all, but I have a feeling wires got crossed, and we were both a bit unsure of what the other had been thinking too.

Dressed. Town with my mum. Not really in a shopping mood. Eventually break for coffee. Watch as my mum gleefully fills in a complaints card – I think it cheers her up, and to be fair, the service had hardly been exemplary.

Home. Food, more stir fry. Sore eyes so change contacts. Leave to meet my cousin at the theatre. Run into my primary school head teacher at the theatre, exchange pleasantries. Play starts - 1001 Nights Now. Set in a Christmas factory – packing baubles and plastic Santa’s, people of Middle Eastern extraction share narratives. Very powerful, with elements of physical theatre as well as traditional story-telling. One of the most surreal scenes was where a tale of the torture of Abu Ghraib is told – life under the Americans not much different from life under Saddam, by a man standing amidst a stage full of waist-height white plastic Santa’s. The moment of greatest tension however contained no spoken narrative, and simply consisted of the workers moving boxes of baubles, stacked high in their arms, across the stage and attempting to lower them to the ground without them toppling.

Home. Tired. This. Talk to Saul. Now bed.